I admit

in the past, I have been weak and prone to selfishness

faithful in fact, but…

            But

            this love

has taken me by surprise

            with its

cruelty

            I attempted

to get it right this time, finding time and space in my life

for her, even

buying flowers, like a boyfriend

            But

            this love

was empty and fruitless

            and

now I know

Trust is a poison.